To Jacksonville, With Love

I recently posted this on Instagram on my last morning in Jacksonville and felt it deserved some space on the blog and a little more love.


I've been back to Jacksonville many times since dropping out of school, but this is the first time I felt emotional towards the city. It wasn't a bad emotional though. To my surprise I was emotional because of the lack of negativity I have towards the space. I could very well have vowed to never return to this place that is filled so much with memories of loneliness, home sickness, struggle, injury, darkness and unhealthy coping. Instead, I continue to return and make new positive memories here. On my most recent trip to Jax I wrote this in my journal:

โ€œI think that this city made me feel so uncomfortable and hurt as an attempt to help me redirect my course. This was not my time or place on 2014/2015, but it did help me learn to make hard choices, get real with myself and redirect my course. Jax boldly taught me what I didnโ€™t want so that I could move forward searching for what I did want. In that process I found a me Iโ€™m so incredibly proud to be.โ€

 
Sunrise Run at Jacksonville Beach in Jacksonville, Florida
 

I donโ€™t regret my time at school in Jacksonville, but I do sometimes look back and think of what I would do differently. I have to remind myself though that the things I know I would do differently I only know from living my past in the way I did. I would do things differently now, because I have grown as a person and that I would never change.

Jacksonville, thank you so much for being the backdrop to such an important time in my life and thank you for always welcoming me back with open arms and dolphin sightings.


More Jacksonville, here!

More from my travel journals, here!

Another love letter to a city that helped guide me to where I am, here!